Brooke and Pedro back together?

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I know I usually write about all things weddings and reality television on here, but really wanted to share something a bit more personal. I've had a lot of people ask me about what's going on with me and Pedro lately. 
 
I don't know how many of you know about me and Pedro's story, or you know what you read on the about us section but we actually got divorced last year. I really thought our relationship was beyond repairing. I had no hope and was completely for the lack of better word broken. There was a lot of things that happened between the both of us, that should have never happened. The relationship was definitely not healthy. It took a divorce for us to realize that we both needed help. For the first time in 4 years, we are both getting that help. He started doing some intensive therapy and then we both decided to do it and can I just say, that has been the best thing that we could have ever done. 
 
bex: "mom get out - this is me and dad's pic." lolSee all that time, I thought like a woman, I thought he needed all the "fixing..." I don't know... we got married so fast, we were engaged after 3 days (we are both Aries.. that should explain, the impulse reactions we have lol), found out I was prego July of that same year. It was like one major life changing event after another. Once our career was taking off, and Bex was getting older, completely lost sight of what was important. For the first time in so long, I have found what is important. My family. I was so scared to tell people I was back with him.  

You know how it is, feeling like you have to hide things from people because they disapprove, might think of less you or you don't want to disappoint them. I had so many people that were there for me last year and I am so thankful that I had that and I don't know what I would have done without them.

But people make mistakes and no one is perfect and I know people have my best interest at heart, but love is funny, you can't choose who you love. Because if you could, this life would be a whole lot easier to live. I'm a firm believer in everything happens for a reason. I admit, last year was the hardest yaer of my life to date, but if I had to go through the heart break, anger and overall confusion of where my life was headed, I would go through that all over again to have what I have right now. 
 
We haven't shot together since last June. I had been so nervous to shoot with him. The one thing that first brought us together, I felt like was the one thing that ruined us. We met when I worked at my dad's guttering office. He was always checking out my ba-donka-donk, and that was annoying and I had a longtime boyfriend at the time so I just blew it off.

I was taking some photography classes at the time and had this black and white photo of this couch hanging up behind my desk on the wall. No one really understand why I decided to display this particular photo of a couch behind my desk, but as an artist I of course found deeper meaning than it being a cute modern piece of decor. Pedro comes into the office and starts asking me about my work. I'm thinking what the f, this gutter guy is seriously not asking me about my work.

I start telling him about this couch photo I had done for a recent assignment and I start to go it represents... he goes.. "solidarity." I go, uhh how did you know that. I literally had told my mother that a few days ago. Maybe, he had had overheard, or maybe he was just that good, but ever since then, we had a bond.

We are both free spirits, and up until then, no one had ever really understand that about me. I mean we are talking about Pedro here... he let me name our new {boy} dog, gaga. Not too many men would let their significant other name their dog that. lol.
 
I love this kid!Fast forward 4 years later and we are driving to our first wedding of the season. I had been anxious all week, telling Andrea (my office assistant/cousin/best friend), that I was just nervous, excited but still nervous/anxious about how this was actually going to go. It had been so long... I just didn't know how this was all going to go down.

We were driving Bex to Pedro's moms house and this song comes on, "Forever by Chris Brown". We were second shooting a wedding with some photographers a few years ago and this couple did the most amazing first dance to that song (It was seriously something you see out of save the last dance or something) and ever since than it has been one of our favorites.

Of course we start singing it at the top of our lungs. He grabs my hand and the biggest wave of emotion came over me that I have ever felt in my life. I've been through a wedding, giving birth to a baby... nope nothing has even compared to the feeling that I felt at the moment, pure happiness. I was thinking, "my life can't get any better than it is right now." I have fallen in love with my {ex}husband, I have the most beautiful boy bobbing his head in the backseat and I'm on my way to my job, to photograph two amazing people committing themselves to one another for the rest of their life. WOH. Insert, tears. Now, I'm an aries... I don't usually.. cry. But I couldn't stop.  I looked over and Pedro gave my hand a squeeze, I saw him start to cry, and of course that made me cry more, but not one word was spoken in that car.

At that moment, words couldn't have even done it justice. We pull up to a stop light and I kid you not, out of nowhere this one single drop of water falls onto our windshield and streams down, looking like a single tear drop. I instantly try to remember if it had been raining, nope, no rain. Whenever I see any sort of rain, I remember back to grade school when someone told me that rain was God crying, and so I immediately start to think, "wow, God must be crying too." Now I know there could very well be some sort of weird explanation for that drop of water on our windshield, but I like to think otherwise. For the first time, all the chaos of the past few years was boiling down to this one moment. If life is just days and days that go by in a blur, with those types of moments tying them together, than I can't wait for the rest of my life.
 
We nailed that wedding. You see... after all that time of shooting together... it was just a business. Yes, it was a passion and yes we both would never want to do anything else for a living, but something was missing, we were missing. We were like a well oiled machine, it was seriously like no other experience working together we have had in the past. It was amazing. 
 
I guess what I wanted to share with all of you is, we lost track. I was too busy putting my time and effort into things that didn't have anything to do with my family, concentrating on my career, which is where we'll call him, Dr. R. comes in. Oh Dr. R. - best therapist ever. I've been too a lot, you see I can't open up. I know... you're probably thinking, she just spilt her whole life on her blog, what do you mean you can't open up.But it's true. I have so many walls up, I don't ever let anyone in. Well, I'm learning to let people in.

Yes, this may be a tad bit extreme, but I'm an extreme person. Here all this time I thought I knew Pedro. I mean you're with someone 24/7, you think you know them, right? WRONG. I had no clue. I still have no clue, but we're getting there. Taking it one day at a time. 3 things Dr. R has taught me that have literally been life changing.

Show people appreciation/affirmation. 
Don't be afraid to tell them how you feel. 
Show some love.

Now number 1 may seem like a no brainer. Actually they all might seem like no brainers but for some reason, I just never knew how I didn't do these things. How many times do we tell people thank you for doing something. Apparently, I never did. I just didn't even know how it affected people. Two words can make a person's day, three words (i love you) can make their life. You never know what impact those three words can have on a person. I'm not really good with the whole emotion thing, but even if your significant other acts like he doesn't like the mushy-gushy, guarantee you they still need to hear that you love, that you appreciate them, that you're so glad they are in your life.

Today, when you notice someone doing something for you, just say hey thank you so much, you didn't have to do that and that means a lot. Tell your bf, fiance, gf, wife, husband, whoever it is... "honey, you have been there for me, and i just want you to know I appreciate that so much. I'm so proud of you for doing (name something they do.. try to make it more significant than take out the trash.. but hey.. if its taking out the trash than it's taking out the trash).  Yes, they will probably look at you like you have two heads, but hey, we are all just trying to show some love. It will change everything.  John lennon said it best...

 "all you need is love.."
 Oh i love this image. Andrea took it w/ my iphone at the Gaga concert thursday! preshhhh

Check out the lyrics to this song: can you say perfect?!

Forever - Chris Brown

1, 2, 3, 4.

Hey Hey Oh...
Hey Hey Oh...

It's you and me moving
At the speed of light into eternity yer,
Tonight is the night to join me in the middle of ecstasy.
Feel the melody in the rhythm of the music around you, around you
I'm gonna take you there, I'm gonna take you there
So don't be scared
I'm right here baby
We can go anywhere, go anywhere
But first it's your chance,
Take my hand come with me

[Chorus:]
It's like I've waited my whole life for this one night
It's gonna be me you and the dance floor
'cause we've only got one night
Double your pleasure
Double your fun and dance
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever girl forever
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever on the dance floor

Feels like we're on another level
Feels like our loves intertwined,
We can be two rebels breaking the rules
me and you, you and I
All you got to do is watch me
Look what I can do with my feet
Baby feel the beat inside,
I'm driving you can take the front seat
Just need you to trust me
Oh ah oh
It's like!

[Chorus]

It's a long way down,
We're so high off the ground,
Sending for an angel to bring me your heart
Girl, where did you come from?
Got me so undone,
Gazing in your eyes got me singing what a beautiful lady
No "if"s, "and"s or "maybe"s
I'm releasing my heart and it's feeling amazing
There's no one else that matters
you love me and I won't let you fall girl
Let you fall girl oh
Ah ah ye yer
I won't let you fall, let you fall
Let you fall oh oh
Yer yer
Yer yer
It's Like!

[Chorus]

Oh ah ah ah ah ah
Yer
Forever (ever, ever, ever)
Forever ever ah.



Thanks to Liam Edley for these lyrics.
Thanks to Dakota, Leigh Davies for correcting these lyrics.